Words of Sadness
I try so hard to be positiveIt sometimes works.Other times don’tToday is one of those days. I thought I’ll write my thoughtsAs they say it does get better.Often I’m in a low moodLonely without anyone to speak. Poetry fills my timeInto late nights I write.Dark clouds over meIn more ways than one. My life is full of things I like to doI pass my time in a dream world.I have stopped doing that nowFor me to get better. I need to see realityBut this has made it worse.I think I know why it isDue to fear of moving on. I have to try very hardTo go out of the houseEven for the essentialsLike food I have none. It’s a blessing in disguiseI don’t feel hungry at all.Despite of everythingI keep a tidy house! Often I stare into spaceAs my mood is very low.Physical illness are manyNothing of life threatening. I pray to God everydayTo make me feel betterTo lift these dark cloudsDoes He hear my plea? Why doesn’t God help meI know He can change my lifeAt least in a small measureSo that I don’t feel so low. I sincerely do not wantAnyone to worry about meAs this a regular occurrenceIn the sad world I live. The fighter I amKnow that things will get betterOne fine day, but when?It has been a very long wait.